In the Netherlands, people as young as 17 can formally request legal assistance with suicide. Nineteen-year-old Veda knows for sure: this is what she wants. After years and years of mental health problems, panic attacks and suicide attempts, she’s done with this life. But doctors come back to her with a condition before they will even consider her request: she has to take part in nine months of therapy. We follow her and her family on this emotional journey to see if her condition will change over the months.